Note:
The first stanza and the final line of the last stanza are adapted from
Longfellow’s translation of Dante’s Divine Comedy.
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Three
quarters through the journey of my life
I
found myself within a forest dark,
The
straight path lost like an abandoned knife.
Dislodging
creepers, prodding crumbled bark,
I
pondered fecund August’s many hordes
Of
stiff-legged insects blatant at their work:
Some
like the beetle, cuirassed and with swords,
Some
like the spider with its hard-jawed bite,
Others
like larvae dangling on their cords,
Mucously-deporting
in the pool-bright
Sumps
of sun. Querying the dusty gloom
I
failed to notice a mosquito’s flight:
It
settled slyly like a flake of loam
On
my hand’s back and, slung between its legs,
Innocuously
squatted down to groom.
Distracted
by the pigeons’ cooing brags,
Moments
later a needle-crafty sting
Alerted
me the gnat was drilling dregs
From
my itchy skin. I slapped – it tried to cling –
I
swept it off and wandered on. Next day
That
bite had swollen to a hot red grin;
By
day’s end it had wrapped a purple-grey
Wadding
of throbbing flesh from nail to wrist,
Immobilising
fingers as they lay
Enfeebled
in my lap. Three days that fist,
A
heat-stuffed bladder gone obesely fat,
Was
useless till the venom flushed and I could twist
My
joints once more. I thought: no insect that
So
suffered would survive: ichneumon wasps
Which
paralyse their fated prey so that
Their
larvae, hatched, may eat the living hosts
Are
emblematic of the natural world,
Its
blank-eyed deafness to the screams and gasps
Of
plundered creatures. When compassion’s furled
Like
dandelions on a glooming day
And
lions do not nestle down with curled
Wet
lambs, where is the love which wipes away
All
tears and fashions ploughshares out of swords?
That
ground of being which insists this clay
Maintain
existence like unnumbered gourds
Toppling
helplessly on a barren slope,
Described
but not explained by blindfold words –
Is
it brute necessity devoid of hope,
A
surd, an aimless dream within a dream,
Or
is it meaning’s meaning, truth not trope?